Healing
Today I want to cover the emotional and mental. I am doing this as my Grandmother, on my Mom's side of the family, passed away recently. I was extremely close to her. I guess growing up with her living in the same house would do that though.
What I am trying to do now is think of all the happy times I had with her. The trick is to do that without crying in the process of remembering. The problem is I had so many good times with her and knowing that I will never be able to share them with her again and knowing that is what hurts. It's that hurt that I need to heal, I know deep down that the hurt will heal with time but it's the impatience factor that comes into play at this point.
For me part of the way I help my healing process is to write, that's why you are reading this now. One thing that my Grandmother was always proud of was me in general, she bragged about me all the time. Then once I started writing, first the really short stories, then some poems and finally my novel that I'm working on she was so proud of me she couldn't stop talking about me or my writing. I only regret one thing and that is not completely finishing the novel before she died. She was not able to read it because her eyesight was going due to macular degeneration, but someone could have read it to her. I know she understands but I did want her to read it or at least hear it. I guess I took for granted that she was going to be around forever, I was wrong.
This is another portion of the healing process that I need to do, get over the guilt of things not done with the person. There is a lot of mental and emotional healing to do when you lose someone close to you. Part of that is crying off and on when you think about the person. The tears will stop eventually, at least I am told they will, but now I'm not so sure about it. Part of the healing for me is to keep the promise that I made to her when I was half through writing the novel and that is to finish it and get it published. She cheered me on in everything that I did, even if I couldn't do it that well.
I am ready for the healing to begin and the way to that is one day at a time. For me part of that therapy is to write. Each person has their own thing that they do that helps them to get through the pain, what is yours? Please share with me, no matter how silly you may think it is, if it helps you that is all that matters.
Keep thinking creatively and uniquely. This world needs the unique voices to be heard.